Even when things seem dark, Beauty and Light is always present to be revealed.
"This is it. I'm going to tell him face to face, enough is enough, I must move on with my life...I have new goals, our relationship takes up too much of my energy, and I'm setting out on a new path..." I think to myself. I have my lines rehearsed. I know exactly what I'll say in a very friendly way.
He opens the door.
"Ahh, you are lovely! You are more and more beautiful every day!" he says with a big smile, open arms ready to greet me with a kiss on both cheeks.
My mind presses the pause button on the lines I've been rehearsing. Although my mouth is open, no words come out.
"Really! Yes, yes, I know this. You are more beautiful each day. More beautiful!" He replies to my silence, in English covered with a French accent. "Come inside -- Yes, you are beautiful." he said, confirming.
He makes herbal tea, We talk, we laugh, we discuss my new "Income in Paris" goal. I forget about dropping our relationship. "Of course I will help you with your goals." he says. "Of course." as we end our conversation.
Ah, Pierre, what category of my life do I place our relationship? Golden, Silver or Tarnished?